Hobby
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Los Angeles, Here I Come!
The past few days/weeks has been a lot of down, more than up. I broke up with my partner, have been questioning a lot in my life including school and friends in general, as well as career path. It’s definitely that philosophy class I’m taking currently.
In addition, today I was informed me and my therapist, Joe, have reached the end of our road (our last session is next month). Heartbreaking. I know. With all of this, I have had trouble kind of balancing it.
Every day, I contemplate dropping out of school and moving to LA to pursue a new life that I couldn’t imagine having. They say to surround yourself by the people that you want to become one day, and LA and Miami are the two places that come to mind for me, as I want to be an entrepreneur. But, that is a big jump, that I know is possible but haven’t taken much more action than thoughts alone.
So, for now all I have is thoughts. I go to school 3 days a week, work a mediocre new sales job, and run my own business. All is great, but I’m just still bored of it all and unhappy in general. I now present to you, passionate reader, my newest idea to distract myself from it all: a new hobby.
Hobbies Are Lame.
Well, yes and no. In my mind, they kind of are incredibly cliche little things people do to avoid becoming a sex addict. But, I generally am going to go insane if I don’t find something else to do besides doom scroll, detail cars, go to school, and think about how lonely I am. I like what I do sometimes in life, but remember it’s not really what I WANT to do with my life. I need something to do that’s both productive and fun to counter my thoughts…for now to keep my grandma from clawing up my body from not committing to Rutgers.
I had such a weak moment today where I literally Googled, “Hobbies for men to do”. Yeah, I got to that low of all lows. Everything I saw wasn’t really anything I liked either. I had the thought of maybe car photography because I do, of course, like cars and photography is pretty cool to me. Maybe that. But, damn, hobbies are hard to figure out.
I think I’d rather drop out of school.